I have made a few attempts in answering reader Mrs. Miller’s question, and for one reason or the other, it never did come together. So here we are again. The question takes me to a portion of my heart that is now so different than what it used to be, yet I will never be the same because of that part of my journey on planet earth. Sometimes I wonder how I can be the same person I was when I was married Daniel. Then I keep coming back to my starting point of the reason I was created in the first place- no it has never changed! When God chose every one of us to be created, He did so with a plan and a purpose, no one but you will be able to change it. Even the hard things that really are not fair are used to reveal a depth of who God made us to be.
So taking a moment to come back to Mrs. Miller question, “What would you change in your marriage if you could?” Fair question, food for thought. My mind travels back over the years with Daniel, and I realize that there are things I have learned and freedoms I’ve gained since his passing, so naturally there are things I’d be glad to do better if I could, nonetheless I was living then, not now. The reality stays the same, if we live in union and clearness with our fellowman, we will have no regrets if we would be separated at an instant. I praise God, because of that, there were no regrets when he passed. God’s grace had taken care of any failures and we were in love.
Still, as I step back and ponder over Mrs. Miller’s inquiry I know there is much this lass needed to learn over the past years as a single mother. While I still believe that marriage in the Lord is one of the richest blessings known to mankind, I also see a new and shining reality that God alone deserves our primary love, our complete trust, and absolute dedication in all of life’s circumstances. To me, something such as love, now looks more like a beautiful river flowing from God’s very throne. As He loves His own through the love of a spouse, it is a gift straight from the Father who made it. He in turn is the One to be thanked and honored for every dimension of this valuable gift. Daniel used to tell me I’m his gift from God and vise versa. I understand it in a new way…